June 06, 2004
you know when you have one of those flashbacks to childhood...like when you play soccer and remember having done that with your dad when you were seven or when you bake cookies and still recall the gooey chocolate chip cookies at age five with your mom? i had one of those today. I went bike riding for...well a long while today after my afternoon show and had a brief moment of deja vu. it might have been the overpowering perfume of late blooming lilacs and the sun beating down on my back but if i'd close my eyes i could imagine myself about six years old, riding my bike in the goose park barefoot, with my hair blowing in my face. sometimes i wish things could have stayed that way, young and innocent and being able to go to mommy with every boo boo. i'll be eighteen in six months. so many things have changed. i've changed. no longer is the biggest thing in my life the contemplation of which ice cream flavour goes best with cereal. i've moved on to more... um..."mature" things such as clothes and boys and, on rare occaisions, the meaning of life. but still riding my bike in the park, barefoot, with wisps of hair from my bun flying in my face. i guess some things will never change.
